Wednesday, February 08, 2012


Random blogging time. Arrived too early at RDU airport (misread flight time). Have absolutely nothing to do, really. Then remembered I used to blog. Ok back to random blogging.

Life has been mostly good. Ha - see that.. mostly. Yup, this post is about us (or me, at least) not feeling sure, not doing things whole heartedly, ever. Its about circumspection.

I think a lot of us have this uncanny knack of taking the simple joy out of things by just over-analyzing. Really simple things. Buying a pair of shoes, for instance. This one looks sexy.. this one is real light-weight, perfect for running. What do I need more? I wish the light weight one looked as sexy. I wish it were a little cheaper. I need to lose weight, I should buy the light-weight one. Damn.. it has the stripes, not the swoosh. Black or White? Aaaah.. ok let me just get this one. And then.. did I make the right choice? But this just doesn't look as sexy. And there you go.. spent $$$ on a pair of shoes, and still there are ifs and buts.

I wish I could be like those 0.1% people I know who are just sure. I'm more decisive than a lot of people I know (yes sap, you are one of them).. but I wish I could be just happy with the choices I make. Small ones and not so small ones. I feel somewhat consumed by circumspection.. apartment choice, career choice, airline choice, country choice. And then I think about what it would take to eliminate all the circumspection. I realized the answer to most issues is more money. If I had a lot more money.. half the confusion is gone, and many times, I wouldn't have to make a choice at all.

BUT.. more money = less life. What do I want more? Circumspection... haha.. this is fun, no doubt about that!!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

LOLed my ass off!!

I found something that made me laugh like a madman, after so long. It was an ancient e-mail. Continue reading only if you can understand telugu. Well, maybe that wouldn't help either. I'm really really sorry for the torture nunu..

Written in the really early hours of 1st Feb, 2000...

From: Hiten Mehta
Date: 1 Feb 00 05:44:49 IST
Subject: Naaku kuda telugu vacchu!!

Priyamaina anu
Hi!!Ela unnavu?Ninna test jarigindi,chala manchiga rasanu.
Ee saari kuda subjective lo 100% vastadi ani ankunta.
Ninna ratri caddy phone chesindi,chala rojulu tarvata.
Hayiga matladina.
Niku gurtunda?
Aa roju nenu niku messenger lo atlane vodili velli poyanu?
It's a different story ani?
Aa roju ninchi nenu niku mail cheya le.
Nuvvu malli aa story gurinchi adugutavu emo.....
Kani,eroju sayintram nenu malli mail chesta.
Aa story chepte chepacchu.
Nito hide cheyalante chala kashtam.
Inka emi.....?
Ni annaiya ekkada unnaru asalu?Naku ardham kaale.
Bore kodtunda?
Ardham avvakpote naku cheppu.nenu english lo mail chesta.
Emmante,na telugu chala high-level telugu.
Niku ardham rakapovachhu.
Nenu,roju english period lo hayiga padkunta.
Aa period luch tarvata vastundi.Inkenti?
Malli 1hr tarvata Sai naku lepuutadu.
Next hour vadu padkuntadu.
Manchi kada?

Sare,ippatki intene,
sayintram malli chesta.
Premam,no,ni premikudu,no,whatever...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

the hardest part..
was letting go.. not taking part..

and the strangest thing..
was waitin for that bell to ring.. it was the strangest start..

Thursday, July 30, 2009

baatein bhul jaati hai,
yaadein.. yaad aati hai

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Thanks MJ...

I've never really been a huge fan of Michael Jackson, although I do like his songs. Still, his passing does bring about a sadness.

I guess I'll always remember him for one special reason. I've only once in my life won any sort of prize for singing. We were in eighth grade then, and even though it was a only 2nd prize in a group singing competition at the Sainikpuri auditorium, I still am proud of it. We were even invited to sing at our school assembly the following week. It was for the song 'Heal the world' by MJ, and it remains my favorite song of his (along with 'Will you be there'). Listen to it sometime, watch the video, and tell me if it doesn't move you. I don't think we won that prize for our singing talents, I think it was for the message the song carried.

Despite the things he did with his body and all the controversies that he had gotten himself into, I think the world outside of the media will remember him for his music and dance, just like it should be, and for the things he did for peace. His music will really live on, and so will he. Thanks MJ!!
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