Tuesday, September 11, 2007

A sudden melancholy

It's that weird time again. Even when there's nothing apparently wrong, an irritatingly conspicuous feeling of morosity seems to have crept into me. For no reason. At all.

I haven't studied at all this sem, so I cant complain that my school is getting be depressed. If anything, I'm having a whale of a time at school. Its at times like these that I start thinking unnecessarily deep things. I feel I've change in some now-noticable ways. I've gone from someone who treasured his few deep relationships to someone who maintains a lot of shallow ones, which is not bad either.. its just that I miss being able to connect to someone whom I could really talk to, about just anything under the sun.. someone who'd listen me out too, without judging me or ridiculing me for my thoughts.

A depressing house, a seemingly never-ending long distance relationship, a dear friend who's just about being there, the anxiety of a job hunt, a lousy job that I do only to continue paying off my rent... these are really the only things I've been thinking about all day.

Its hard to smile through tough days sometimes.

3 comments:

Arya said...

>:D<
Do you want me to sing again???

anunu said...

Its hard to count your blessings sometimes, but if you can do it, you'll feel pretty darn proud of yourself.

Akhil said...

I would have written the same post some time back...
A depressing house, a seemingly never-starting(ending) long distance relationship, a dear friend who's just never(about) being there, the anxiety of a b school(job) hunt, a lousy job that I do only to continue paying off my rent...

Life's not too different for many people..dont feel bad..u got company!!!
Now...dont say u'r depressed coz of the company :P

 
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